Thursday 13 August 2020

28 July 2009, Jaime writes for the very last time.

Me lembrei quando desenhava no Curso de Desenho e Pinturas da Escola de Belas Artes Augusto Esteves. Sabe que nem sei quem é, foi Augusto Esteves?

Meu sonho era desenhar e pintar o que eu quisesse. Sem esforço e com talento e prazer. Hoje com 46 quase 47 anos, é que comecei a entender como seria viver a vida pesquisando arte. Hoje me sinto muito integrado com o que eu mais queria. Uma realidade construída meio com brutalidade as vezes e outras com doçura. 

Quando eu era balconista de uma papelaria de desenho e livraria, tudo muito didático, eu trazia tantos blocos de desenho e gostava muito de escrever com a caneta Rotring à tinta Nankin. Presenteei um grande amigo com uma Rotring e até hoje tem e usa com regularidade. Ele escreve letras de músicas com elas. Fica um primor. Tenho ai alguns cadernos com essas letras de músicas.

Hoje é dia 28 de julho 2009, logo 27/08mi compleaño. Pedi ao Mauro que fizesse abará, deliciosa comida baiana feita com feijão fradinho, no meu aniversário. Que indecência cometi. Eu corro o risco de nunca mais ser procurado por ele. Lógico, amigo cheio de compromissos e eu me meter nas suas horas que ele não quer fazer nada. 


28 July 2009 was the last time Jaime wrote in his diary. He would die on the very first hours of 6 August 2009, at Hospital Emilio Ribas, in São Paulo. I noticed his handwriting was a little different in these 2 last pages.  

Wednesday 12 August 2020

1st April 2008, Tuesday -

1st April 2008.

Terça-feira produtiva. Hoje acordei às (quase) 8:00 (oito horas) e já comecei a fazer coisas. Fumei e fiquei olhando as três bonecas que estou fazendo. São bem engraçadas, eu acho! São menores do que eu imaginava fazer. Tem mais ou menos uns vinte centímetros (20 cm) de altura e pernas bem finas como os desenhos que tenho feito. Tem cara e cabelo engraçados. Uma expressão que eu já me identifico há algum tempo.

São frequentes as pinturas figurativas que eu faço; que eu uso como tema para um trabalho infinito. Já faz mais de vinte anos que eu pinto. Então, se passaram 20 anos e continuo a fazer as figuras, mas de outras formas: bonecas, bordados; é um processo muito demorado porque eu piro quando começo a fazer e vejo que vou caminhando na direção certa. Eu tenho a imagem tão definida na cabeça que, aí, eu deixo rolar e o Universo me guia, pois deve achar que eu sou um menino curioso e me envia os anjos me mostrando o caminho.

2nd April 2008.

Acordei quase na mesma hora de ontem. Terminei de roçar o mato da horta; fiquei lá quase duas horas. Voltei p'ra casa e tomei banho. Arrumei o material para ir para o ateliê, onde fiquei até as 18:30.

Hoje 'tô me sentindo tão bem quanto ontem. Só tive um pequeno aborrecimento com meu pai, que esticou, forçou um pouco meu bom humor. Mas logo voltei ao normal.

Ontem eu cantei tanto e tão alto... estava sozinho... e hoje quero estar no mesmo ritmo. Cantei a 'Canção do sol' (gravada por) Elis Regina e uma outra da Elis que não sei o nome, nem autoria; tão linda quanto as do Milton (Nascimento) que a Elis gravou.

Bem, vou continuar as pinturas de 'Bodas de sangre', que é sobre um balé do filme do Carlos Saura de 1981, baseado em peça de Federico García Lorca. São seis pinturas em tela com acrílico aquarela. Estou me interessando por um pintor chamado Gregorio Gaber, que fez uma exposição (há 20 anos) sobre o filme do Carlos Saura. Me lembro tê-la visto na época. Eu sempre quis desenhar sobre o que vi e hoje estou fazendo como exercício e também para vender a uma pessoa que está interessada em comprar. Elas estão ficando bonitas e vai me doer quando vendê-las.

desenho com guache sobre cartão; cenas de 'Bodas de sangre' de Saura; February 2006.
cenas de 'Carmen', de Carlos Saura - Ponciano, February 2006
6 August 2008.

Se me perguntassem hoje: 'Como você está? - eu diria que péssimo. Ontem eu diria, ótimo. Amanhã nem quero pensar. É incrível como a gente está sujeita a mudanças bruscas; pode mudar tudo num piscar de olhos.

Talvez esta sensação pesada é do amendoim que comi demais; tenho a impressão que o mau-humor e pessimismo com o dia tem a ver com isto. Percebi que estou um pouco irritado quando chegou meu irmão com a família. Não sei o que houve, mas... Por que é assim?

(outro dia - sem data)

Eu estou muito bem humorado hoje. Já cantei vários trechos de músicas que sempre canto enquanto limpava a casa e o ateliê. Agora fiz um finíssimo, longo e elegante 'cigarro'... darei umas 'bolas' enquanto penso nas cores que vou pintar este tecido branco - para fazer vestido para a Glauce. Quero exagerar no colorido - vermelho, azul, verde, rosa, preto!

Hoje o dia está nublado com cara de muita chuva e um vento ideal para soprar minha criatividade para as alturas e soprar minha repleta de borboletas - cantando assim as cores do dia.

7 November 2008.

Li, acabei de ler esta lixarada que garranchei há algum tempo! Credo! Vai!... parece até diário de menina retardatória, repetente da segunda série da escola primária. Nem um Primário regular eu tive. Me lembro daquela escola feia, fedida, triste e professores ignorantes, fascistas - me lembro com exatidão todos os detalhes. Até cheiros daquela época.

Em 1972, eu completava 10 anos; em 1969 estava no primeiro ano aprendendo a ler na cartilha 'Caminho Suave'. Fazia um ano do Golpe de '68, e eu, ingênuo naquela escola com cheiro de poeira e suor. Carteiras pesadas de ferro, minúsculas para duas crianças. Sempre me feria os joelhos quando me levantava. Uma professora magra, com cara de subnutrida à frente do quadro negro e dos alunos. Era autoridade máxima. Com voz estridente, um trinado histérico, falava, se dirigia aos alunos aos berros. Totalmente esquizofrênica, agredia fisicamente os alunos; a mim várias vezes. Jogou meu caderno na lata do lixo porque eu desenhava muito mais do que devia?

Malditos aqueles anos. Parecia que eu nunca ia me livrar daquela atmosfera que me punha em desiquilíbrio total com minha natureza. Depois, quase no Ginásio, a minha esquisitice, minha sexualidade gay foi a gota para quase um linchamento. Eu fui tão odiado!

Quando eu repeti a sexta série pela primeira vez, pedi, nem me lembro como, para meu Pai me livrar daquela escola naquele ano. Inventei algo como: este ano eu já perdi e convenci-o a me matricular em um curso livre de desenho e pintura. Comecei a gostar do curso e permaneci por três longos anos frequentando assiduamente as aulas de um professor Ismael, que já era um senhor de cabelos brancos naquela época. Aí, sim minha cabeça começou a ficar repleta de borboletas...

Voltei no ano seguinte para aquela escola feia, e logo nos mudamos daquele bairro e 'ciao' para aquela escola e professora horríveis.

Aí, comecei a frequentar locais públicos de arte. Tudo que era grátis eu participava.

Fomos morar em um bairro que era mais perto do centro da cidade de São Paulo. Então comecei a conhecer a Pinacoteca do Estado, na Luz e a frequentá-la. Me apaixonei pelo acervo, Almeida Junior (1850-1899), Pedro Alexandrino (1856-19420, os Modernistas, Tarsila, Anita etc.

José Ferraz Almeida Junior & Pedro Alexandrino Borges.
Tarsila do Amaral (1886-1973) & Anita Malfatti (1889-1964).

11 November 2008.

Dormi muito. Acordei estranho, com sensação de cansaço. Hoje o dia está úmido. Apareceu um pouco o sol e já sumiu. ... um pouco estou aqui no ateliê. Vou começar o trabalho: estou fazendo três bolsas, sacolas, 1/2 bordada, 1/2 pintada.

Tuesday 11 August 2020

June, August, October 2004

Hoje é 17 de junho 2004; faz um tempinho que não escrevo neste caderno. Então, então o que? 

Fiz Revolução Solar com a Lili. Aí, ela me disse que eu tenho que estar no dia e hora do meu aniversário, 27 agosto 2004, em La Paz, na Bolívia. Espero que não esteja frio por lá. Acho que estará pois é mês de inverno aqui e lá também. Se estiver aquele gelo eu fico só uma noite e volto para casa. 

Tenho tantos planos para realizar em casa. Preciso fazer uma casa-studio onde eu possa ter o que preciso para não ter que sair de casa. Não posso viver numa casa como esta; preciso, realmente, dar a devida atenção que esta casa merece! Estou nos planos - a confecção 'Pintô & bordô', as telas - tem que ter ordem p'ra fazer tudo isto... vamos ver...

Hoje é 30 de julho 2004, Sexta-feira; faz um tempinho que não escrevo neste caderno. Ontem terminei de fazer uma bolsa que comecei no ano passado (2003). Fiquei sem linha da mesma cor, é um azul claro, mas acabei. Estou vendo um programa sobre a China; ela está ficando cada vez mais milionária

Mês que vem é agosto, mês de meu aniversário. Vou para La Paz, na Bolívia. Ficaremos lá por uns três dias, meu Pai e eu. Vai ser bem interessante. Nem ... os meus planos. 

Hoje é primeiro de outubro 2004, sexta-feira e o tempo vôa. Aqui nesta oficina-casa o que não falta é trabalho e sempre estou perdido no meio de tanta coisa p'ra fazer. No momento estou com uma tela no painel p'ra começar; outra na bancada e mais duas para fazer fundo ainda! E também estou fazendo a parte bordada de duas bolsas, sem contar que tem que levar quadro, trazer quadro...

Domingo, 24 outubro 2004 - Hoje é aniversário de duas pessoas que eu gosto, que eu amo. Minha irmã Janete e minha amiga Roberta. Roberta fez anos ontem e hoje é a Nete. Escorpião, elas se parecem fisico e psíquico.

(mais tarde) O restinho de domingo lá se vai. Me lembrei agora mesmo que fui ver a mostra de pintura, gravuras e posteres de Antoni Tàpies. Fiquei impressionado com a força do trabalho dele. Gostei muito de umas pinturas que ele fez sobre papelão de embalagem, de caixa de tevê. Me deu uma inveja! Ainda é bonito. Gostei também dos posteres, aqueles rabiscos e manchas sobre um papel todo escrito com contas, números. É o tipo de trabalho que me atrai bastante. Uma pintura que ele fez sobre madeira. Uma pintura de uma banheira; ela é toda pintada de preto como uma silhueta e o elemento principal da tela é uma banheira, pintura de uma banheira em tamanho natural apenas pintada de preto. Nem imagino o que ele tenha usado para compor este incrível desenho da banheira mais a pintura. Parece que ele fez o desenho numa velocidade bem grande! A pintura está em pleno movimento.

Antoni Tàpies' 1945 self-portrait. 

(outro dia) Ontem vi um documentário sobre o pintor David Hockney. Ele é inglês e vive há muitos anos nos Estados Unidos. O trabalho dele é incrível.

These are notes taken by me (Luiz Amorim) when I visited Jaime Ponciano at his Nazaré Paulista rural home, a few weeks before he turned 42 years old on 27 August 2004.

Jaime was hell-bent on making a trip to La Paz, Bolivia, to spend his 2004 birthday there. This was part of a 'solar return chart' Jaime asked his friend and astrologer Lilian Moraes to draw up especially for his upcoming birthday. For those who are not in the know here are some explanation:

The solar return chart is calculated based on 1) your time of birth, 2) your birthday (month and day) and the current year, 3) and your location as you celebrate your birthday that particular year. When casting a solar return chart, it's less important how you spend your birthday than where.

So the crux of the matter was: Jaime had to spend his 2004 birthday in La Paz. As we didn't have Internet we sat down and studied carefully an old copy of Lonely Planet's 'South America on a shoestring' to figure out the best and cheapest way to get from São Paulo to La Paz.

At first Jaime was going to travel by himself but apparently Mr João Teodoro Silva, his father, became interested in going too as a few of his Christian Congregation brethren had invited him to visit them in Bolivia.

Myself & Jaime pored over the travel book in search of the best & cheapest hotel. Here are some of the choices of location (next to the railway station) with its prices in US dollars.
Needless to say Jaime's solar return chart travel came to nothing. I don't really know what the main problem was but as you see, Jaime didn't return to the subject again. His next entry in his diary in on 1st October 2004, well past his birthday. 

Tuesday 4 August 2020

Matthew Wong (1984-2019)

'Starry night', 2019.

Matthew Wong (1984-2019): A brilliant artist pained by depression

Canadian painter Matthew Wong, recognized internationally for his evocative works, had a brilliant career sparking critical acclaim.

By Lou Mo, 3rd August 2020.

In an age when art creation becomes increasingly versatile both in medium and expression, it takes courage and talent to establish oneself as a painter. Canadian prodigy Matthew Wong achieved global acclaim through his powerful and vibrant paintings. Unfortunately, his brilliance shone too short in this world. In 2019, the artist committed suicide in Edmonton, Alberta at the age of 35. Wong left a resounding legacy that continues to intrigue the art world. A look at his background and his work will help us understand Matthew Wong’s art and its enchanting qualities.

Matthew Wong started producing art in 2012, and he taught himself to paint and draw from scratch and adopted a rather gestural method. This makes what he had achieved in his very brief career as a painter all the more astounding. Matthew Wong’s style matured quickly. He started painting as a trial by chance as he found out during his graduate studies that photography was not the medium that could carry out what he wanted to express. Looking back to works later exhibited, what is also inspiring is the ease with which Matthew Wong was capable to capture different moods in creating artworks whose ambiance range from extreme tranquility to mystic rhythm.

Most of Wong’s large-scale works are landscape or still life paintings with a minimal hint of human presence. Wong stated in an interview that his works are spontaneous and intuitive, as he worked directly on compositions inspired by his experiences and imagination without making preparatory drawings. This immediate quality does transpire in his work all the while echoing some uncanny aspects of modern life such as solitude and melancholy.

Matthew Wong was born in Toronto in 1984, but he lived in two countries and two cultures. Between ages 7 to 15, Wong lived in Hong Kong before returning to Canada. He studied cultural anthropology at the University of Michigan in Ann Arbor before moving back to Hong Kong in 2007. There, he enrolled in the City University of Hong Kong’s MFA program specializing in photography. An avid reader, Matthew Wong was not only interested in reading about art, but he was also interested in literature and wrote poems regularly.

Art permeates the intellectual life of the artist who was constantly looking for ways to narrate his feelings, and Wong continued to practice photography and poetry even as he established painting as his main method of expression. As for painting as his medium of choice, the artist himself reflected eloquently, “at the center of my practice is exploring the materiality of paint and struggling to yield a surface that gives a sense of space and structure, however contradictory, that reaches a state of form I can live with.”

His name in Chinese, Chun Kit, includes two characters meaning handsome and outstanding, respectively. These qualities are equally true of his artworks, often signed in Chinese on the reverse. His art reflects this richness and diversity in his background, and one with an observant eye is prone to find in the painter a sensible and tranquil understanding of a huge array of artistic influences ranging from Paul Sérusier to Shitao, from Vincent van Gogh to Alex Katz.

Matthew Wong soaks up painterly possibilities like a sponge to churn out something that is his own, modern and pulled together. Often cited inspirations include Post-Impressionism, Nabi, and Fauvism. Equally present in Matthew Wong’s work is a quest to understand what could a painting be in today’s world, the artist’s experimentation went from colours, patterns, perspective, and dimensions to scale, drawing from an enormous corpus of knowledge. Sometimes, the painter called to Eastern references to resolve these issues playing hide and seek with the viewer’s eye, as Chinese literati painters would have done.

Social media has been an important tool for the artist’s creation and interaction with the larger artistic community. Wong had been active on Facebook, and his work attracted much attention and praise from well-known critics from Jerry Saltz and Roberta Smith to Eric Sutphin. The painter’s breakthrough moment came in 2018 with a solo show at New York’s Karma. Saltz commented that the show was “one of the most impressive solo New York debuts I’ve seen in a while.”  Roberta Smith’s comment in the New York Times was even more touching and intimate, she thinks his work “was deeply nourishing: my life had been improved and I know other people who have had the same reaction. Such relatively unalloyed pleasure is almost as essential as food.”

Matthew Wong committed suicide at age 35, a shock and tragedy for the art world, devastated to see a star fall so quickly. It was shortly after he finished the works for a now-posthumous exhibition for Karma. By that time, he was already shown in a number of galleries in New York and Hong Kong, off to a very promising career. The show Blue features a series of paintings and works on paper, and the eponymous blue dominates these works. What is touching is the deeply resonant emotive quality of Wong’s work, so tender and pensive but in direct communion with the viewer. Wong’s mother, with whom he was very close, said that the artist “on the autism spectrum, had Tourette’s syndrome and had grappled with depression since childhood.”

'A dream', 2019.

In 2020, a small Untitled watercolor by Matthew Wong, dated 2018 and originally exhibited at Karma in New York that spring, was sold by Sotheby’s online as the opening lot of a contemporary art day sale. The hammer price went many times over its high estimate of US$ 15,000 by finally settling down on US$ 62,500. The work in question is a calm still life basked in vermillion tones, the colours saturated and dreamlike. A few persimmons lay on the right side beside a candle and a glimpse of a vase with flowers.

'Untitled' (persimmons, candle & vase) 2018.

A couple of months later, another oil canvas painting titled Mood Room, also dated 2018 with the same provenance, achieved more than US$ 800,000 at Phillips New York’s evening sale. This fine and gorgeous interior scene encapsulates what modern painting has come to incarnate both in its exquisite style and the irresistible mood emanating from the room. Within the span of a few days, another reached the million-dollar status at Sotheby’s contemporary art evening sale. Wong is not uncalled for success. Understandingly so, his career was too short with few works available on the market for those who enjoy his art.

'Mood room', 2018, Phillips.

Lou Mo; I graduated with BA in Art History from McGill University and later studied Chinese Art in the Asian Studies division of Paris' École des hautes études en sciences sociales.

'Morning landscape', 2017.
'Winter's end', 2019.
'See you on the other side', 2019.
Matthew Wong.
Monita Cheng, Matthew's mother.

Matthew Wong: Kind of Blue

It seems that Wong was in touch with his deepest feelings and they came through in all of his art; this is what makes him special.

John Yau, 7 December 2019

Matthew Wong, “Look, the moon” (2019), oil on canvas, 70 × 60 inches (all images courtesy of Karma, New York)

Matthew Wong’s career was all too brief, leaving those of us who were enthralled — as I was — by his debut show at Karma (March 22-April 29, 2018) wondering what he might have accomplished had he lived longer. After all, this was the work of a self-taught painter who began painting in 2012, shortly after graduating in Hong Kong with an MFA in photography. However, not long after he completed the work that comprises his current exhibition, Matthew Wong: Blue at Karma (November 8, 2019–January 5, 2020), he committed suicide at the age of 35. Although it is hard to separate the paintings and works on paper from this overshadowing fact, I think it is important to try.

Fifteen paintings are spread throughout the two galleries, office, and front window of the large exhibition space, while eleven small works on paper, done in gouache and watercolour, are in the smaller storefront gallery a few doors away. As the exhibition title suggests, the colour blue dominates almost all of the paintings and works on paper. Wong’s subjects are traditional: landscape and still life. This is how I described the paintings in his first exhibition at Karma:

Wong makes myriad lines, dots, daubs, and short, lush brushstrokes, eventually arriving at an imaginary landscape that tilts away from the picture plane at an odd angle. A painterly cartographer, Wong literally feels his way across the landscape, dot by dot, paint stroke by paint stroke.

While this method of working is true of a number of paintings, especially in the front gallery space, the paintings in the smaller back gallery show that Wong had broadened his approach to applying paint to the surface — perhaps as a result of using gouache and watercolour.

Blue Night” (2018), oil on canvas, 60 × 48 inches

In “Blue Night” (2018), which measures 60 by 48 inches, an oversized pink tulip sits in a large glass half-filled with water dotted with air bubbles. The flower and glass are in a dark blue room, sitting on a light blue surface. Behind them we see a closed door on the left and a window on the right, in the corner. Outside the window, beneath a curving band of deep blue sky, there is a tree with orange leaves, rendered with fat dots of paint. By the table on which the glass sits are the horizontal blue slats of wooden chair nearly submerged in the painting’s dark blue light.

The water glass and lone flower are too big in relation to the rest of the things in the room (the door, chair, and window). They dominate the space, demanding the viewer’s attention. At the same time, there is something tender and vulnerable about the long, thin-stemmed flower standing erect in a big glass. Is the rim of the glass holding up the flower or is it magically standing on its own? The longer we look at what might at first appear to be a simple composition the more we see.

This is what makes Wong special: it seems that he was in touch with his deepest feelings and they came through in all of his art. And feelings, as they say, can be messy. For this reason it is reductive to see his work through the single lens of his suicide. We owe Wong and his work more than that. This is why I decided not to go to any other exhibitions on the day I saw this show.
Untitled” (2019), gouache on paper, 12 × 9 inches

In “Path to the Sea” (2019), a charcoal gray path emerges from the middle of the painting’s bottom edge, rising and diminishing until it ends about three-quarters of the way up the painting’s surface. Above it is an oval — a clearing — made of three horizontal bands in various hues of blue, denoting the sky, ocean, and land. On both sides of the sinuous path Wong painted trees, leaves, foliage and fauna, using a vocabulary of full dots, dashes, and brushstroke lines. White and black paint accent the thick forest and indicate moonlight and shadows.

Wong’s works hint that he wanted a direct rapport with the viewer; often, simple gestures, as in his placement of the path, pull us into the painting and raise our attention up the painting’s surface. In fact, we might not initially notice the figure — whose head and back are seen from behind — entering into the painting from the bottom left edge. I felt a shiver of displacement pass through me as I took in the whole scene. Wong has located his viewer behind this solitary figure, who is walking through a forest at night to reach the sea. The forest is crowded with marks while the sea and sky are relatively empty, with five stars in the uppermost band. Who is this person that we seem to be walking behind and accompanying?

 “Path to the Sea” (2019), oil on canvas, 80 × 70 inches

In his earlier paintings Wong tended to cover the surface with myriad marks, from daubs and dashes to lines of varying lengths and widths; grouped together, they articulate a landscape made up of simple and direct paint application. There was something honest and innocent in this. The result was optical and dreamlike.

Blue Rain” (2018), oil on canvas, 72 × 48 inches

I was struck by the different techniques that distinguish these paintings from the ones Wong had shown in the same space a little more than a year ago. In “Blue Rain” (2018), he depicts a blue path leading through a field of white flowers to a house abutting a forest of tall, straight trees. Part of a vast full moon dips down into the painting’s top edge. What differentiates this from his earlier paintings is the additional layer of diagonal brushstrokes indicating rain. As in “Blue Night” and “Path to the Sea,” there is something meaningful about the incongruity. In “Blue Rain,” it seems to be raining torrentially on the night of a full moon. The moon, directly above the house, is like a beacon guiding us to shelter. The rain, however, becomes a curtain of marks separating the viewer from the house.

In “Look, the Moon” (2019), Wong waited until the oil paint was dry and sticky, rather than smooth and creamy, before applying it to the surface — instead of distinct brushstrokes and marks, the surface is textured and seems gummy. This deliberate move evokes a forest full of pine trees partly obscuring the moon, which is framed by two leafless birch trees.

In these largely unpopulated paintings, Wong invited the viewer to be a solitary observer or sojourner. He never indicated what awaits us at the end of our journey. He seamlessly integrated contradictions into his works so that they reveal themselves slowly. Wong did so much in a short period — around seven years — I don’t think a sense of loss will ever leave me when I think about him or look at his work.

Matthew Wong: Blue continues at Karma (188 East 2nd St. and 172 East 2nd St., Manhattan) through January 5.